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I gotta feeling.

{Monday, August 31, 2009}

When people say ''those who are able to confess to someone about liking them is really brave and courageous, cause I'd never have the guts to do that'' or something along those lines of praise, I agree. It's a hard thing to confess to someone, to bring your deepest feelings of affection onto the surface, and to give give someone else the power to shatter your heart.

But having said that, I also think those who confess their feelings are displaying an act of selfishness. Because by expressing your feelings to the other person, have you ever thought how they would feel? Putting both your friendship on the line, just for your own desires? What if they don't reciprocate your feelings and things become so awkward that you don't even end up talking to each other anymore, or you get so cut that you feel weird talking to them again? I mean, it's okay if you know they feel the same way about you, but what if they don't? Of course, that's just my own pessimistic thinking =p my friend couples proves otherwise, like shirleybruno jennykevin ryangrace petershimene lilytrevor etcetc hahah I never noticed how many friends have coupled up now. Every time I see them it's like aww so cute... wish I had someone like that...

But for me, I prioritize friendship above relationships. Big sighhhhhh. How am I ever gonna find someone when I like them too much of a friend to ever want to risk it and be in a relationship with them? :(

Last day of Winter.

WELCOME SPRING! :) HEHEHE.

AW HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BROTHER, HE'S 10 NOW :D :D :D

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Baby don't hurt me.

{Friday, August 28, 2009}

A few days ago, triggered by some random discussion we were having, a friend of mine asked "Do you believe in love?''. The question had a stunned for a second, and I realised that I truly did not know how to answer that question. Love can be classified in many different ways to me, and in the context of a significant other, I am still unsure whether I believe in ''true love'' or not. It has not happened to me before, I have never felt ''in love'' with anyone, it's always just been mostly, merely infatuations. And likes. And very likes. So I guess all I can say is I've fell ''in like'' before, but no, not in love. However regarding friendship, I can truly and honestly say that I do love certain friends muchly <3. And of course, with my family, no matter how much I complain about annoying my brother is or how my mum and dad nags, I love them very very much - to the extent of not knowing how I'd survive without them.

So I guess I do believe in love to a certain extent in certain contexts, but honestly I think couples who are together aren't really "in love" with each other the way dramas and fairy tales depict. It's more like, a feeling of comfort and ''gotten used to it'' kinda thing, that being with them is like a habit. Because if they realise being together makes them ''compatible'', then there isn't the need to change, is there? How many couples out there can honestly say that they will never get bored of their partner and will be able to enjoy every single day with them for the rest of their lives?

Commitment is a hard thing for me. My horoscope said ''commitment is a feared word for you''- true that. I just can't envision myself settling down with someone. It's hard to imagine what my life would be. I've never liked anyone to the extent where I can say to myself "you know what, I'd be so happy spending the rest of my life with this person and I can happily accept each and every one of his flaws and still be content and will never get bored of them, because this is what I've always wanted" - isn't that what "love" means? Of course I do wish for someone THAT special to appear in my life, as much as I want my life to seem like a fairy tale with happily ever endings. But no one has ever made me feel that way in all of the eighteen years in my life. Am I asking too much or is the word ''love'' simply so over-rated in our society today that it's definition has been altered and turned so cliche that we have all forgotten what love is? :)

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Cause I know what they bring.

{Monday, August 24, 2009}

I've been experiencing strange things. I've come to the realisation that certain individuals can influence the way I feel, and I don't like it. Because I hate knowing the fact they have the power to dictate my feelings and moods. I try to stay in control, but sometimes it can't be helped. What does it actually mean to feel influenced by people? If anyone has an answer, please let me know, because that's what I've been searching for.

And it sounds so selfish, but I can't help but think that if you knew how much I needed you, you'd stay. Cause I hate goodbyes, I hate these tears in my eyes. I hate myself for the way I feel about you every time. I've had enough, I'm sick of wishing he was around me every day every night it's way too muchhh. I hate loveeeee.

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