as much as it hurts to say these words.... i think it's best for you to leave me, live your life. don't worry, i will be alright. in no time, you'll find someone who's better than i. go now, don't you cry. i'LL always, be right by your side. maybe someday we'LL get another try... somebody told me you cannot appreciate what you got until it is gone, but they were so wrong, cause i've cherished you.. it's just that i'm......

i hate the word "if" .. everytime you regret something.. you'd always think .. "if" this, "if" that..... "if i could go back in time, blahblahblah".. if - what a pathetic word. 

i hate the fact we have feelings, it makes us so sensitive. i hate the fact we're so sensitive, cause we get hurt so easily. i hate it that we get hurt so easily, as it causes us to be so vulnerable.

meh. oh wells. i guess it's about time to stop. time to stop whinging, stop nagging.. stop trying. doesn't that contradict with the entry before? hahas.. but yeah. personally, i think i did whatever i could. it took a lot of courage cause i was scared. so big WELL DONE for myself ^^ rarara. even though it never worked out.... =( rara? =(

okok. give me a minute to look back (: hehes rofl yes i know i'm being a sadass, as if someone died or something -_-'' but oh wells (:

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[NOTE] hmm. most of these links are irrelevant like eg. even if it was a paragraph or something i posted the link. hahas how lame can i get -.-'' hahas at least i didn't add the links that included just a NAME or something lols. but yeah it doesn't really have anything to do with .. whatever =\ it's just random little bits&pieces of memories (:

&&..etc. lols yeah i can't be bothered looking for any. hahas -_-'' i was skimming through the previous entries. oh wells. it's all good . life goes on, doesn't it? it never waits for you =*( awww lols x) .

well, memories are always good (x rara thanks so much for... everything . =)  [yeah, to be able to say all this & give up, i must've cried a litre of tears............. haha nah jokes =p i only said that cause it sounded cool? or DiD i???.. rofl. &.. yeah, hahas..... it's just that there's nothing more i could do...]

hahas omg now i look @ the above ^ and it seems so gay -_-'' and please don't misinterpret, it's not a "relationship" problem thingo it's a "friendship" getget? x). as in, there bf/ex for me ^__^ ahhas. i'm good ^.^

hahas. let's all stay optimistic shall we? (: maybe, just maybe.. one year later? or maybe not. (=

bah . now all this can be forgottennnn ~~  & in the end it didn't work out after all. i'm don't gonna say i don't care anymore.. yup, it still does hurt & yes, i do regret. =( but hey, at least i tried to piece everything back together right? but it seems this jigzaw puzzle is too complicated for my simplicity&naiveness. ... ): yup.. onebyone, they're drfting... 

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ahh wells. this is one of the longest entry in a long time i think =p so i'm not gonna blog for a while =| .. my energy's running out... due to various reasons. at the start of the year, i remember thinking "my life is so perfect like this..." and look what happened. hahas. i jinxed myself :( 

"i just know they didn't make it.. i know they didn't make it"...
"there was this girl that had a big hole in her leg.."
"you just couldn't help running.."
"a big explosion happened, some guy came out and his skin was all off.."
"this.. mass terrorism, is the new evil in our world today"
"the many many innocent that would've lost their lives"
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... i realise my problems are so shallow & insignificant compared to all the problems around the world. knowing that all people i know&care about is alive is enough. we're much much luckier than those many many innocent people. thank god.

my heart and prayers are with the victims.
"you prepare for the worst.. but you don't believe it all happened..........& this is the worst" ....

no one deserves the right to take away someone else's life. life is such a fragile thing. please take care of it, and cherish every moment.. cause unexpected things do happen.

"i can be your hero baby, i can kiss away your tears.. i will stand by you forever.. you can take my breath away."  ...... i can.
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