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Bitch please!

{Friday, June 26, 2009}

I'm not a very mean person, Tongue and there's not much people I dislike. Yet there is a certain someone who I am disliking at this very moment. Hahahaha. I sound mean already but who the fuck cares eh? One of the personality traits I hate the most are people who tend to hold grudges. Myfuckingod, can't take that shit from grduge holders, ha. Which reminds me of some funnnnnny things (lol sharon: throwing rubbish Wink) The actions of some people leaves me speechless. I can only laugh at how immature they are at handling certain things and situations. Can't believe how low some people sink to. Guess it's true about what they say.. people only show their true colours when something bad happens. Like seriously? Bitch please. Get the fuck over it and move the fuck on, mate. -_- Who's to say I gotta cop the shit you do and go along with your continously fluctuating emotions? But hey, if doing that makes you feel better, then feel free and be my guest. Whatever floats your boat mannn. (Y)

How disgusting.

I don't even know why I'm... angry. Seems to be too unworthwhile to even react. Ah wells don't really want to talk about it anymore cause I really can't give much of a shaaaaaat. Oh the bitchiness, I blame it on the time of the month - yes I'm having IT, roflmao! Big Smile Sorry you had to read it guys, hah. Yesterday after seeing quite a few people I haven't seen in a while I realised how much I miss friends outside uni and even those who do go unsw, who I don't see often Wink haha. Also realised that I'm freaking olddddddd when I see people still in uniform at Parra Westfields, ha. I remember the days when we would hang around there after school thinking we were top shit cause we owned that place yo =p hahaha. How heartbreaking it is for me to see some hot guys in school uniform and then stop and brace myself - because shit, i'm such a pedo (U)! cry



Hahaha how cute are they :D I sorta miss school uniform! ):

Also miss HAPPY HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY my dearest miss ANNA! <3

You give me fever like I've never ever knownnn. You're just a product of loveliness. Aww Mr. thriller ... how great you are (*) I still remember Chris singing that at his house hahahaha it's even on youtube! *smirks* >:D

So let's end the blog with a TEEHEE just like nigahiga mister RYAN HIGA :) hahaha.

P.S: it's quite the (li) stage for many people, hahahahaha.
P.P.S: Who are you, Mr. AwesomeGuyWhoShallNotBeNamed? >:(


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Sleepless nights.

{Wednesday, June 24, 2009}

A few months ago a friend of mine, who is an up-and-coming nature photographer, decided to spend a day and night alone in the woods outside of our town. She wanted to get photos of the woods and wildlife as naturally as she could for her portfolio. She wasn't afraid of being alone, as she had camped by herself many times before. She set up a tent in the middle of a small clearing and spent the day taking pictures. She filled up four rolls of film on that trip, but something was strange about them. What she saw in those pictures has stayed with her ever since, and she is still trying to recover from the trauma the have caused her.

Almost every picture was accounted for, save for one picture in each roll of film. These pictures were of her, asleep in her tent in the middle of the night.

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I've always had a terrible fear of being submerged completely in water. Not that I can't swim or anything. My dad made me learn; he said I almost drowned when I was really young.

I was afraid of it because, for as long as I can remember, whenever I am under water and look up at the surface I see a woman reaching down to me with a warm smile, with glowing golden hair and dark blue eyes. Even if its just in a bathtub. It always happened, it was just normal for me, but i never got used to it.

It was unnerving, but also soothing at the same time. She always made me feel like it was okay. I still avoided it, though, because I was just a kid and it was really freaky.

I never told my dad about it as a kid, but I did ask him about my mom. He never wanted to talk about her. Sometimes he even got mad at me for trying too hard to bring it up.

It was only recently that I described this apparition to him. He nearly drove into a telephone pole; obviously he knew something. I asked him, again, about my mom. He still would say much, except that she died when I was very young, and that she loved me very much. He also admitted that her hair and eyes were those colors, just like mine.

So I did some research on my own, looking up her name for myself on my birth certificate and trying to find any references I could, any news clips about a boy nearly drowning, any thing. I mostly wanted a picture, something I could match to my guardian angel.

Today, buried in our town library, I found it.

WINCHESTER: Marie Withie, 28, drowned to death yesterday evening after climbing a razerwire fence and fleeing to a nearby resevoir. A funeral is scheduled by her family for the 25th. Marie was institutionalized just six months ago, after being found "not guilty" of attempted murder on grounds of insanity. Her husband Daniel Withie had acted quickly enough to rescue their infant child when she was found trying to drown him in a bathtub.

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In France, a young ambient musician by the name of Charles undertook an interesting new project. He was going to record the sound of himself sleeping, and release it under the name "La Nuit" (The Night). Charles lived alone in a rural area, which would remove things like car alarms, traffic, and such from being recorded. He planned his project for many months, acquiring the sensitive equipment to capture all outside noises as well as his own during sleep.

Finally, on the 27th of September, he decided to execute his plan. He set up all his equipment, and fell at sleep at midnight.

The next day Charles reviewed the recording. For the first hour, the recording played his own tossings and turnings as well as some distant dog barks and a few car alarms (So much for his plan to distance himself from cars). These continued throughout the 2nd hour as well, until Charles heard something that horrified him.

For at exactly 3 hours and 24 minutes in, the recording played the sound of his bedroom door opening.

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In rural southern Illinois a toy company began selling "realistic" baby dolls to expectant mothers. But apparently after the mother had her child the toy baby would start crying. Eventually the "rocking motion" advertised to calm it down wouldn't work, and you couldn't get it to stop without shaking it. Eventually when it started crying the parent would have to beat it, and the beatings and thrashings would have to get harder and harder to get it to be quiet. The only thing that seemed to shut the baby doll up permanently was the bash its head against the wall to destroy whatever mechanism triggered the crying. On more than one occasion though, neighbors called the authorities to report child abuse, and when the police arrived they found the bloody remains of infants smeared across the walls and the floor. In most cases the mother couldn't understand why the police were there, she just "got rid of the stupid doll" as she rocked a baby-shaped bundle in her arms.

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You are home alone, and you hear on the news about the profile of a murderer who is on the loose.
You look out the sliding glass doors to your backyard, and you notice a man standing out in the snow. He fits the profile of the murderer exactly, and he is smiling at you.

You gulp, picking up the phone to your right and dialing 911. You look back out the glass as you press the phone to your ear, and notice he is much closer to you now.

You then drop the phone in shock.

There are no footprints in the snow.

It's his reflection.

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A man went to a hotel and walked up to the front desk to check in. The woman at the desk gave him his key and told him that on the way to his room, there was a door with no number that was locked and no one was allowed in there. Especially no one should look inside the room, under any circumstances. So he followed the instructions of the woman at the front desk, going straight to his room, and going to bed.

The next night his curiosity would not leave him alone about the room with no number on the door. He walked down the hall to the door and tried the handle. Sure enough it was locked. He bent down and looked through the wide keyhole. Cold air passed through it, chilling his eye. What he saw was a hotel bedroom, like his, and in the corner was a woman whose skin was completely white. She was leaning her head against the wall, facing away from the door. He stared in confusion for a while. He almost knocked on the door, out of curiosity, but decided not to.

This disinclination saved his life. He crept away from the door and walked back to his room. The next day, he returned to the door and looked through the wide keyhole. This time, all he saw was redness. He couldn't make anything out besides a distinct red color, unmoving. Perhaps the inhabitants of the room knew he was spying the night before, and had blocked the keyhole with something red.

At this point he decided to consult the woman at the front desk for more information. She sighed and said, "Did you look through the keyhole?" The man told her that he had and she said, "Well, I might as well tell you the story. A long time ago, a man murdered his wife in that room, and her ghost haunts it. But these people were not ordinary. They were white all over, except for their eyes, which were red."

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Sleep well, everyone
If you are, like me, unable to sleep, do call me on my mobile and we can stay up together being paranoid.
YOU AND I CAN BOTH SHATBRIX!
You know you love me, xoxo.

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Disappointment.

{Sunday, June 21, 2009}

I imagine a lot of things when I'm alone. I conjure up fantasies in my mind through the power of THE IMAGINATION, taking me on an imaginative journey with no boundaries... hahahaha okay okay enough with the HSC journeys talk. But yeah, when I'm by myself, when I'm walking home, when I'm home alone, when I'm lying in bed etcetc... I have a habit of imagining things. Sometimes it gets so absurd I find myself suddenly stopping and laughing at the hilarity of it. It's like I'm so unappreciative of what I have that I find escapism through the imagination. Or am I simply trying to get away from the reality? Hahaha :) I think it's the latter, as I am so thankful or everything I have now, so thankful of it all. I don't think I have any regrets, because everytime I look back, I realise that at that certain point in time, I made that certain decision to do whatever I did, to say whatever I said, even if it was impulsive. So no matter what the consequence or repercussion is, I'll learn to accept and handle it. Smile

I worry too much. That's one of my main weaknesses. I can't stop worrying about something once it happens. Like exams for example; of what the outcome will be, of how I could cope and of what my parents will say. Of course, I know that deep down, what's done is done and that there's nothing I can do to change it or alter the result in any way. But I still worry, haha. Such a bad trait, I reckon. So I'm trying just to go with the flow and take things as they come, one at a time. Worry about it when the time comes, because sigh, life goes by so fast Sad I think, for most people, time is the only enemy preventing them to do everything they want, because even with millions and billions and gazillions of dollars, nothing can stop the passing of time, the ageing of the body. Even now, as I'm typing, time is tick tick ticking away and days go by like a wind swept calendar. Tomorrow, tomorrow, tomorrow. Such is life :)

However, with all that said, I still can't get rid of the sense of disappointment after completing the finals, sighsighsighhh. I think out of all the emotions, disappointment is the worst. Because you can't release it, like anger, nor can you share it, like happiness. It's the feeling of letting YOURSELF down. Because in facing yourself, there is no need to be act, to pretend or to keep the slightest sense of pride of  dignity. With all that stripped away from you, you are forced to come to confront your most inner self, with nothing but truth and purity. And that's what I did. Despite from getting over the ''What if's" or "I should've done this and that.." etcetc, the feeling persisted. cry And, it gets to the point that I guess, all you can do is laugh cause life goes on =p . Dammit, life's a bitch, but it's gonna be MY bitch ;) AHAHAHAHAZZZZZZ. Shades

I think, what keeps us going is a dream, a goal, an aim, a desire to achieve something. Unfortunately, I haven't found out what that dream or goal for me is... Sad although vaguely it is just contentness. At this moment, though, what I consider to be content is not having to study or do work! Hehehe. And I guess that's why I haven't been able to fully devote myself in like studying or whatever lulz. But I know that, once I find that inner desire, I will be able to make everyday worth so much more instead of just lazying around and wasting time and sleeping and whatnot. KEKEKEKEZ. (Lawl that just so ruined the mood Hurmph) If only life was free of responsibilities and competition and materialism.

Reflecting back on myself, it feels like I've grown a lot these few months, hehe. Thanks to everyone who took part in my life, helping me grow and BLOSSOM LOLOLOL JOKES. But yeah, I guess everything we go through in life is all part of the learning experience huh? Smile Take some food for thought guys, and don't let time pass by without any meaning :)

YEAH anyways I went to eastwood to have lunch today, the food was good, as usual. Just the weather still hasn't brightened up... HOW I MISS THY SUNSHINE! ='( come out come out Mr. Sunshineee <3 hahaha oh while walking home with Malith the other day I was talking to him about watermelons.. random I know, but the point is that I kept saying WATERLEMONS instead of watermelons like wtf? Ahahaha that was so stupid of me he was like, wtf joanne? Wtf is waterLEMONS ahaha omgawds. OKAY I'm sorry this entry is kinda all over the place it's just the way my mind works I'm not very logical am I? SOZ I try next time make sense Big Smile

I don't wanna close my eyes. I don't wanna fall asleep. Cause I miss you baby, and I don't wanna miss a thing. Cause even when I dream of you, the sweetest dream will never do.


HOLIDAZEEEEE PLAYPLAYPLAY!
Big Smile

FLY HIGH!




Loving you all, always :)
xoxo.
BACK TO MY DRAMA. HAHAHAHAZ. =p
Still in the search for my bright bright future BOOYAHH. <3

P.S: JINNY I'M SORRY FOR DOING SUCH REDUNDANT THINGS cry
P.P.S: I NEED DREAM INTERPRETATIONS! >=( lawl!


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