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it's just not for us to understand ...

{Tuesday, February 27, 2007}

i don't understand why the the interactions between people are complex.

you'd think a bunch of happychappy friends have nothing to worry about . but deep down in the core of everyone's hearts, there are so many complicated and twisted secrets&knots tied with one another.

why can't everything be simplistic and pure? maybe it's my naive wishing, but i'd rather that than having to see and experience everyone in dilemmas and betrayl etc.

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what i really want to know is why.

why you're doing this. whether you care about our friendship at all. whether we mean anything to you. whether you feel guilty or not. whether you ever even thought twice before doing it.

.. do you care? or are you just simply using us ...

hoping that you could stop doing this to yourself and to others ..

i wish i never found out >< & i don't want to change my views or the way i act towards you because of this. but sometimes, it gets to a point so extreme i can't help but get annoyed. ):

i love you too much to lose you ><

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come back to me soon ): i miss you already SIGHSIGH. i don't know why you changed . but i wish you told me, instead of keeping everything to yourself. doesn't it hurt having to force everything inside? why won't you tell me ..

& i know you were/still are; angry . wouldn't it be better if you talk about it with me =S . i dunno .

hopefully you can get over whatever it is sooon && yeah .

don't lie to me; when you're eyes are showing the truth within.

missing you dearly.

& to the other's ? dang . i hope everyone's problems gets solved ahhh ><

dotDOTdot .. sighsigh =[

missing the simple & innocent childhood days LMAOS =P

i love you's so so soo much . i'd hate to see people getting torn apart cause of some stupid reason . so be strong and cope through it, my friends (:

& life? it's just not meant for us to understand ..

MWAHS;<33

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trust.

{Saturday, February 24, 2007}

im hesitating. about trust .

i don't wannr make a big deal out of this. but it's just getting to me and i just feel like writing it down. even though im not literally WRITING, but typing =b.

i'm not blaming anyone; or accusing anyone .. but wtf am i supposed to think after i give wallet for friend to look at .. then friend carries bag all the while when we're walk to this place. & then i have to go into a room to talk to someone .. then we all go and buy food, and i get wallet from bag to pay. and $20 goes missing.

maybe something happened during that time. i don't know. it's not the first time this has happened. there have been many similar situations. and it has happened other baby girls as well.

whenever i lose money i feel guilty for not looking after them properly.. cause it's my parents money. like they earn it for their hardwork.

and whoever took the money uses it like it fucken grows on trees on something. pffft yeah whatever.

but like i said before, i'm not saying a friend of mine stole my money or anything. lols =S idk . w/e ahaha

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sigh. i don't wannr start some shit for no reason and cause awkardness.

but meh. it's not really the money that i'm upsetting over, even though this is partly the reason. but it's the trust&loyalty between people.

zomgs i dunnnoooos. what am i saying ? =\

.. ahh whatever mans.

lalalalalas.

i'm outs; laterrrrs =)

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enjoy studying; (:

{Sunday, February 18, 2007}

ehehhes. so i'm back from an awesome holiday from china, and with nearly two years to the HSC, it's time to really concentrate & study hard in preparation for the upcoming exam which will determine my future. HAHA. =)

however, before blabbering on, i must, first of all, wish everyone a happyy chinese new year. (= so may everyone ¹§Ï²·¢²Æ ! hehehes

anyways. i hate it when some people say one thing, yet does another. i was quite annoyed at the fact that during maths ext on friday, while i was doing my calculus homework (since the teacher gave us a period to catch up with homework or w/e) and eddie saw my booklet and wanted to learn calculus. and because i had this question which i did not quite understand how to solve, he called the teacher over for me .

seeing my work, the teacher asked the class who else is advanced and ahead of the syllabus, and offered to accelerated everyone, instead of doing "BASIC REVISION".

yet however, hearing that offer, two people from the class immediately yelled out their disapproval as to being accelerated. they called my name and when i answered they yelled "why did you have to tell the teacher about your tutor work for...... blahblah ... why do you bring you work to school for .. we wanna do the easy stuff etc.etc."

well. the answers are simple. first of all, i did not tell the teacher about my tutor work. and second, i do not want to waste my time doing year 8/9 revision on FACTORISING.. which i consider to be.. (not intending to offend OR sound egotistical in any way), elementary junior school work.

the main thing which i got annoyed at, is the way they reacted upon hearing being accelerated. i mean, if you're in an extention class then what's the point of doing yr 8/9/10 work ? if you want to do the "easy stuff" then drop 3U and just stick with general or 2U. and one out of the two of them always complains about wanting to change schools cause APHS's education is apparently not good enough & will not get him/her a good UAI and all that stuff blahblah.

and when the teacher offers to be ACCELERATED, just like what they do in selective schools such as JAMES RUSE, what do they say? they back out and refuse the offer, saying they want to do the revision stuff and follow the so called "syllabus" ppffftt. how CONTRADICTIVE.

anyways. i shall stop my blabbering here, for if i was to type more i'd just get aggro and yer ;) hahahas.

ahh yes, this is my first entry of this year . oh, and my resolutions?

1. TO BE TOP 5 IN AT LEAST ONE SUBJECT AND/OR
2. TO GET OVER 90% IN AT LEAST ONE SUBJECT AND/OR
3. not to use too much credit. =S
4. listen & obey to parents more ^^;
5. BE A BETTER PERSON .

ahhh. i must achieve at least ONE of them ! these are goals which i believe i can actually ACHIEVE, so here i go, climbing step by step reaching for my resolutions =) HAWHAW ~ LOLOL.

hehehs may this year bring happiness&joy to everyone in abundance <3

goodluck, everyone (=

♥ 19:01

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