WELLL. schhhoooL is TOMORROW. =) last day of freedom spend at home looking after my brother .. who is SiCK and jigging his first day of year ONE. =) now isn't that cute. -0-'' rofLs. anyways. i got my books =) and a new bag . xD i was so desperate for a new bag i got a mickeymouse one lmaos . but it's stiLL cutee  whehehs . ^^;; hmm ~~ spend chinese new year day with sharon&lily =) it was fun . bummed everywhere and my foot was hurting a lot. there was so much goddamn people >=/ the lino dancing and fire crackers were cool ;] ahahs .

anyways.. i feel so oLLLddd >_< year 1O . i don't FEEL much different .. AAHH >< little yr 7's ! they better be cuter than the one's last yr psshhh -_-'' the start of year 1O .. hmm ~ the start of private one on one tutoring on friday nights at auburn x_x .. and back to preuni on saturdays .. that's my life . & that's the way i gotta live . =) i don't want to whinge anymore .. i don't want to complain anymore.. i'm gonna accept it as it is ^^ although there will be times when i start bitching about my life .. BUTT =) i know that my parents are doing the stuff they are "for me own good" - -'' &  studying is all worth it . x] i'm gonna get a good report and hopefully make into selective ^^ haha

speaking of selective .. fuck you james ruse . okay, not like i'm smart enough for james ruse BUT there are people who attend average school who are but because they attend average schools you don't fucken accpet them . you only accpet people from good selcetive schools. just cause your the best school in NSW don't be so fucken superior >=D remember the guy that went epping boys? you didn't accpet him . so he jumped to north sydney boys .. and THEN you noticed how smart he was when he topped nsbh. ;] man, i admire that guy. he topped from epping boys to james ruse in half a year. woahs.

baahh i don't know why i wrote that last paragraph >_< it seems rather .. unfitting. are you excited about school? i am =) . it's a whole new year .. i mean yeah i'm used to sleeping&waking up late and a whole day of freedom & usually boredom xP but i'm glad to be able to see friends again .. and as well as meet new friends too =) i seem to have realised i don't have a goal in life. i don't have a dream ... what i'm trying to achieve .. are my parents' expectations of me .. and when i think about it .. what they expect isn't that hard.. all they want is for me to make into selcetive.. get good UAI and go good uni =) and then to live a happy life .. and i don't want to disappoint them although at some poin every few months? i want to tell them that's it my fucken life so stfu ;]

and as for relationships? all i can say AT THE MOMENT is i'm not interested .. and i want to concentrate on my studies, butttt if there's someone who happens to come along .. then .. we'll see . ;] but i seem to have given up on it . it's time too time consuming & it makes you go crazyyy X_X and plus they won't last ;] so better to wait until i'm oldER =] although i am very much interested in tv series and their relationships .. fascinating . now ain't i mature? =) oh yes i am darLings .

yayyyy ENERGYYYYYY . hoo-haa ! ;)

sorry but my paragrpahs are all mixed up and out of order .. i only type what i think at the moment .. lols i cbb going back and placing the right sentences with the other ones - -''

ironically, life's good ;]

oh and you know what? my mood changes really fast. so whatever i wrote in this entry .. i might be like "oh stuff it" the next day or something =P but i', willing to really try and study study STUDDDYYY !!

<3 from joanne ; oneway* - 2145 =)